[media-credit id=3 align=”aligncenter” width=”422″][/media-credit]Okay, I am not a scary big control freak that goes on a rampage when things aren’t going my way. Most of the time, I’m a relaxed person and I try to take things as they come. However, when it comes to my work, I like to have some structure so I know things get done. I can break this subject down into various elements, but for now I’ll focus on having a lovely schedule and then getting knocked of your path AND the need to have everything figured out before I show the world something new.
I always give myself some sort off deadline when I work on projects and commissions. The deadlines I have are in a way flexible, but I rather don’t move them around too much. Needless to say, I get upset when I have a nice schedule and suddenly lots of other things come on my path that demand immediate attention. And this is exactly what happened to me the last couple of months. There were a bunch of situations knocking me from my schedule and this annoyed me to no end. I won’t bore you with all of them, but for example, I know that I can’t foresee that my wisdom teeth will act up. The point is that even though I know that things can get in the way, I still get annoyed.
You may wonder, “So, how did you manage to prevent yourself from going on a scary rampage?” Well, believe it or not, after the initial – staring into the distance being incredibly annoyed-, I did manage to find some positive elements in it. Examples are, realizing I could combine several projects together and work more efficiently, narrowing down my focus points and taking more breaks. Another thing that I realized is that I don’t have to have a perfect plan to start something new, like recording paint process videos. Recently I uploaded my first video ever on Youtube. With most ideas that pop in my mind, I think it through and make a little plan. Just to make sure I don’t overlook something. For videos, I had in mind to do an intro, a voice-over and whatnot. However, there was always something that prevented me from the actual recording part.
But then one day, I was just sitting at my desk, staring at a sketch, then staring at a camera and I decided to record. I had now no idea how I wanted to paint her, but I just set –up and started painting. And you know, it turned out pretty good. So why did I wait so long huh?
Well, I realized that because I can “control” what I could show you all, I let my perfectionism hinder me as I wanted to have a fun edited video. I can always do this of course, but with my current schedule I just need to make proper use of the time I have available now. Also, even though I have a waterproof plan for recording videos, things can still go wrong. I just need to imprint it in my brain that I can’t control every little element in my business and so far whenever control got taken out of my hands, it turned out for the better. At least, I made sure that I found some positivity in it.
But it’s definitely not easy. Sometimes I accept the fact that things don’t always go my way without getting annoyed and other times I get terribly frustrated and go like “Whyyyyyy!?”
“It makes no sense to worry about things you have no control over because there’s nothing you can do about them, and why worry about things you do control? The activity of worrying keeps you immobilized.” – Wayne Dyer
Or in my case, running around in circles.
There are so many uncertain factors in what I do, so to have some certainty is nice and calming for my mind. There’s something else that has been on my mind as well, but you’ll have to wait till next time.
About the Author: TJ Lubrano
Tahira Lubrano, also known as TJ, was a Master Sociology student, but now she is chasing her dreams as an artist. You can find ramblings and observations surrounded by her own illustrations at her blog A Look in a Creative Mind. Everything is magical there and you are most welcome to float along and wander around her imaginative world. br> View My Profile